Monday, May 17, 2010
flashbacks of the past [1:37 AM]
Someone’s POV
A letter addresses to me arrived earlier. I stared at the return address and smiled as I read that it’s from my sister.
I sat on the white sand and enjoyed the soft breeze as it touched my face while opening the envelope.
Then, I started reading it.
‘Oppa! How have you been? You transferred to another place with no internet? (You’re making me write a LETTER! Are you sure there’s no internet there?)’
I laughed. Even up to now, she’s till so childish.
‘Anyway, Jiyong oppa and Dara unnie just celebrated there seventh year anniversary a few days ago. Taeyang (even after 5 years, I still can’t believe they named his after you!) and Gara wrote a song for them. Awww! Jiyong oppa and Dara unnie are so lucky to have them as kids. They’re very smart… I mean, they’re 5! And they wrote that song on their own!’
‘Bom unnie and Seunghyun oppa was there too with their son. And guess what, Bom-unnie is two months pregnant!’
Wow. After 7 years. Shin-woo will now have a baby brother or sister. Here I thought he’s going to be the only child. Bom noona and Seunghyun needs to stop being so workaholic.
‘As usual, Chaerin unnie is pregnant again. It’s kinda scary oppa. I mean, she and Seung-ri oppa were only married for five years, yet they already have 5 kids! Their kids are popping everywhere.’
This earned a chuckle from me. Haha. Seung-ri and Chaerin can’t really keep their hands off each other.
But, my laughter stopped as I read the rest of the letter.
‘Oppa, my wedding is near. I wish you could come. Ever since mom and dad died, you became my dad.
My wedding day would be the happiest (because I’ll be married to Daesung!) and the saddest day of my life. You know why? Because no one would give me away. Dad’s not here, you’re not here.’
The letter was smudged because a single tear fell from my eye.
‘But, Jiyong oppa volunteered to do it. So, no worries.
I felt bad for him though. He’s trying too hard to fill in the spot you left oppa. But, he could never replace you.
So, oppa...when will you come back?
Love, Minji(Your little sister who wants you back)’
You know I can’t go back now Minji. For them, I am already dead. I’m so sorry.
Then, I felt someone hugged my from behind.
I looked back and saw it was her. So, I gave her a peck on the lips.
“Mr. Dong Youngbae, the lunch is ready. The kids are there already. Let’s go.”
“I’m so lucky to have you as my wife Jamie.”
I stood up and scooped her in my arms. I carried her bridal style until we reach the table.
Yes. I changed my name to Dong Youngbae. I’m married to a beautiful woman named Jamie and I have 2 healthy sons. And I’m happy. And I’m planning to keep it that way.
flashbacks of the past [1:22 AM]
Taeyang’s POV
‘I misunderstood everything. I’m so stupid. I should have asked first. But, I’ve done it already. I take all the blame. I just need to fix this.’ That’s what I said to myself as I drove back home.
When I arrived, Dara was still there, talking to my little sister, Minji.
She looked up and gave me a smile. But, even though no matter how many times she will deny it, I know that smile is just fake.
I approached her and grabbed her hand.
She just followed me and didn’t even ask where we are going.
After a few minutes we arrived in the hospital and I led her to HIS room.
I saw her cover her mouth as she was trying not to cry aloud. Here we are, looking through the glass mirror. Jiyong was lying on the bed, still unconscious. Tubes were all over and machines where attached to his body.
(A/N. I had a classmate, she’s 18 btw, who had a heart attack lately and there were a lot of things attached to her body. Sorry I don’t know what it’s called. But she told it’s for some kind of a test. It will be attached to your body for 24 hours I think.)
“Remember the day we went to the amusement park? It was the day Jiyong had his first attack. That’s why he didn’t come back for you. You told me that when I drove you home that day, he was there. Unfortunately, he escaped the hospital because he doesn’t want you to worry. That’s what the call about. Karen… she’s the doctor who help Jiyong. What she meant when she said ‘they’re not finished yet’ is that they were not able to finished running all the test on him. And when we left him, he ran after us. And his heart couldn’t take it anymore.”
I didn’t finish what I wanted to say because I know that it was all my fault. My best friend is lying there inside because of my stupidity.
I looked at Dara and I saw her face covered with tears.
‘I thought I’m not capable of hurting you, but I did.’
On the corner of my eye, I saw Bom-noona and Seunghyun coming. At first, I thought that their presence won’t help considering of what Bom-noona did.
But contrary to what I thought, Dara ran towards Bom-noona as she saw her.
Bom-noona hugged her back and asked her. “I thought you hated me.”
“Yes, I did. But now, I just need a hug from my sister.”
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Dara’s POV
I held his hand as I wait for him to wake up.
It’s been a day since Taeyang drove me here, yet Jiyong has not woken up.
I nearly lost all hope when I felt him move.
His eyes slowly opened. He looked around, maybe trying to comprehend where he is.
Then, he faced me.
“I’m sorry if you have to see me this way.” He said with such a gloomy face.
I couldn’t help but cry. Why is he in this state? Why him of all the people?
“Honey Bunny, don’t cry.” He said.
“How many times do I have to tell you not to call me that?”
He chuckled. But he winced not long after. Even laughter could bring him pain.
“I want to be the rain. You know why? So that every time you cry, I would just wash your tears away.”
I held his face and caressed it.
Then, we heard a knock on the door and a doctor went inside, shortly after.
“Good morning. Ms Park, I’m Doctor Karen and I handle Mr. Kwon’s case. Now, I have some bad news for you.”
I squeezed Jiyong’s hand gently because of too much nervousness.
“Mr. Kwon needs a heart transplant as soon as possible for he could die in his next attack. But, the problem is, we couldn’t find a heart donor compatible to him.”
As she finished saying that, tears automatically fell from my eyes.
‘I can’t…I can’t lose Ji. He’s my life.’
This time, it was Ji’s turn to squeeze my hand. For some odd reasons, I find it comforting.
I wiped my tears with my other hand and asked the doctor, “Doc, is there anything else we could do now?”
The the doctor looked on the ground, maybe because she couldn’t say it straight to my face.
“Without the donor, we couldn’t do anything now except pray that he’s not going to have another attack.”
There. I lost it. All the hope I have left.
So, after the doctor closed the door as she went out, I faced Jiyong.
“I know you're going and I can't make you stay. But before you go, I want you to know... I'll love you anyway...”
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Jiyong’s POV
When I woke up, there was no one holding my hand. I panicked a little and I looked around. I saw my best friend, Taeyang sitting on the couch on the left side of my bed.
He looked at me and I knew he’s about to tell me something serious.
“You have no idea of how much I want to be in your position.” He said.
“You want a defective heart? You can have it.” I joked.
“No! What I mean is… you have no idea of how much I want to be with Dara, to be able to hold her hand, to be able to say how much I love her…” he said followed by a deep sigh.
I didn’t respond. I just want to hear what he wants to say.
“…but, you know what? I sacrificed my own happiness because I love you too much. Our friendship is more important to me than my own happiness.”
I smiled and I felt proud to have him as my best friend. But that smile quickly turned into a frown as I remembered something.
“I know…I know that you loved her every since. Actions can never lie. The way you look at her, the way you laughed when she would crack a joke. It shows. I’m not that blind. But, I still pursued her. I was selfish. I thought of my own happiness. Maybe that’s why God is punishing me…”
He just listened to me, like how I listened to him earlier. So, I continued talking.
“But, I’m dying. Can’t you see it? TY, promise me this! If I die, can you please take care of Dara? She acts so strong, yet she’s very fragile. I know, you love her so much that you won’t make her cry. Just…please… PROMISE ME!”
He gave me a sincere smile and started talking once again.
“You know, I always thought that if I’ll finally have her, I would be happy. But when I was taking care of her after that misunderstanding, I could see the sadness in her eyes. So now, I already accepted the fact that I can never make her happy. And… I’d rather see her happy with someone else, than be miserable with me.”
After he said that, he stood up and approached the door.
I gave him a questioning look.
“What are you doing TY?
He looked back at me and said, “I’m just doing the right thing.”
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(After a few days)
Dara’s POV
I just couldn’t hide it. I was crying yet, at the same time smiling. You may call me a crazy person, but I don’t care.
As I went out of the room, I saw Bom-unnie looking so concerned.
“Dara, are you okay?”
“Unnie. They found one. They found a heart donor.” I said as I hugged my sister.
I cried and cried on her shoulders until I have no tears left to shed.
Now, all I have to pray for is a successful surgery.
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Minji’s POV
After eight hours of surgery, Jiyong oppa has returned to his room.
I could see Dara-unnie’s very happy that the surgery went well.
Then, the doctor went inside the room.
“Doctor, can we thank the family of the donor?” Dara unnie said.
“Of course.” The doctor answered.
“Can you lead me to them?” She asked.
“No need… she’s here.”
Then, the doctor looked at me, and I couldn’t keep it anymore.
“I’m so sorry unnie. I tried to stop him… but he already made up his mind.”
I hand her the envelope my brother left.
“Before he did it, he left this. He said I should give it to you.”
Dara unnie stood there while holding the envelope, trying to comprehend what’s happening.
With her shaking hands, she opened the letter and read it.
‘Dara, Should i be happy because you're my friend? Or be sad, because that's all we're gonna be?
But you know what? I would rather be your friend, who is secretly in love with you, than be a stranger, who doesn’t even know you exist. For years, I tried to forget you. No matter what I do, I just couldn’t move on. I mean, how could I move on if I’m still in love with you? But, like what I said to Jiyong a few days ago, I’d rather see you happy with someone than be miserable with me.
Forgive me for doing this, but the circumstances left me with no choice. Even if it hurts me too much, I’m glad to see two of my most favorite people happy together. I know, he’s your happiness. So, I did something for you not to lose your happiness--- I gave him my own heart.
To Jiyong, please take care of Dara. I’ll haunt you if you make her cry! That’s not a threat. It’s a promise.
Your best friend,
Taeyang
PS. Dara, now that I’m gone, I hope you take care of my sister. You know that I’m the only family she has.’
After Dara unnie read it, she broke down.
“TY, how could you?” she asked. But, we all know that it would be left unanswered.
I saw a shadow on the corner and I knew exactly who it is. But instead of calling his name, I shut my mouth. I know he had a reason for doing this and I don’t want to be the one to ruin his plan.
So, I went towards Jiyong oppa’s bed and told him, “Please take care of my oppa’s heart.”
After I said that, I looked back at the corner to see if he’s still there. But, I saw nothing.
flashbacks of the past [1:22 AM]
Dara’s POV
I couldn’t take it anymore. Why is this happening? My life used to be perfect. Now, it’s still perfect…. a perfect disaster!
My sister lied. My boyfriend, I mean, my ex boyfriend, cheated on me. Damn! Thank God Taeyang is here.
What would I do without him? Right now, he’s the only person I trust.
If only…if only I didn’t stop loving him, I would be the luckiest woman in the world.
FLASHBACK
It’s been ten years since the first time I met Taeyang in the woods, the first time I met my savior, the first time I met my best friend, the first time I met my first love.
Yes! I, Dara Park, am in love with my best friend Taeyang for ten years!
But, too bad, I guess he doesn’t feel the same.
Ever since this school year started, he had been avoiding me like a plague.
Hmph! He said he want to hang out with REAL BOYS this time. Come on! That Jiyong guy…a BOY?! He’s a FAG!!!
Or maybe I’m acting like this because he keeps on annoying me.
But one day, I noticed that he was avoiding me too. I guess Taeyang warned him not to bug me.
So, I went on with my life without that prick.
Sigh. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I guess I miss him.
You know what? I think I like the attention I get from him. It’s as if I’m the only one he sees. That’s why he kept on teasing me.
Every single day he avoided me, I miss him more and more. And without me realizing it, I’ve already fallen in love with him. And there’s no turning back.
END OF FLASHBACK
Recalling that memory pained me even more. God! It hurts so much. Every time I think of Taeyang, I also think about him!
How I wish I didn’t fell for that jerk.
I wish… I wish I didn’t get over Taeyang. I wish I’m in love with him instead… because I know… he will never ever hurt me.
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Seung-ri’s POV
I accept my defeat. She’s falling for him now. I guess I’ll just die alone and miserable.
I was alone in our house and here I am sulking in my room. I looked outside the window and saw that the storm has gotten stronger.
Then, I heard the door bell ring. Since I was the only one home, I went downstairs to check who could probably be outside at this time.
It couldn’t be Jiyong hyung, he had his own keys and I doubt if he’ll be home tonight since he said Dara noona’s upset over something.
I didn’t even bother to turn the lights on the living room on, so when I opened the door, all I saw is a silhouette of a woman.
Then, there was a sudden flash of light from the lightning, so I had a glimpse of who my visitor is.
“CHAERIN! What are you doing here?”
She was wet from head to toe and she was hugging herself because of too much cold.
“Can I come in? I’m freezing.” She said as she tried to control the chattering of her teeth.
I let her in and I immediately ran towards the bathroom to get some towels.
When I got back, she was still standing near the door.
“What are you doing to yourself?” I said as I gave her one towel to dry herself. Using the other towel, I help her get rid of the excess water in her hair.
“This is not helping.” I said as I drop the towel on the floor. I ran upstairs in my room and took some clean clothes. I ran back immediately and hand her the clothes.
She stared at me with a questioning look.
“The bathroom’s over there. Change into this.” I said as I pointed where the bathroom was.
She didn’t say another word but just followed what I said.
As she closed the bathroom door, a lot of things went inside my mind.
What is she doing here? Taeyang hyung might have done something to her. No! He couldn’t even kill a fly. He’s not capable of hurting her. So why is she here? Why?
My thoughts were interrupted when the bathroom door opened.
She was wearing my clothes and I never thought that she would look sexy in this.
Damn Seung-ri! Control your hormones!
She approached and me and said “Thanks.”
Then she looked at the ground as if she saw something interesting there.
I just stared at her. I just couldn’t believe that she’s here—in front of me.
“I thought you hate me so much that you don’t want to see me again.” I said out loud. I just have to say it. This is a really confusing situation.
‘Yes. I do hate you! I hate you because even if you hurt me, I still miss you. I hate you because even after all this years; I still want to be with you. I hate you… I hate you because even after all the things you’ve done… I’m still in love with you.”
After she said that, I did the only thing I could possibly do right now. I kissed her.
I guess I caught her off guard that’s why she gasped. I took it as my advantage and slipped my tongue in mouth. All years of longing were converted to passion. We kissed like our life depended on it.
She wrapped her legs around my waist and she locked her fingers on my hair. I pushed her on the wall for support as I attacked her neck. I heard a moan escape from her mouth as I bit her neck. I was so turned on by her moan, so I started to kiss her on the mouth again.
But, I suddenly heard my phone ringing.
As I let go of her, both of us were breathless. She was blushing madly, maybe because of what we just did or to what we almost did.
I took my phone on the table and saw that it was my brother calling.
“My brother has the worst timing in the world.” I said softly.
I pressed the accept button, expecting my brother, but it was a voice of a woman.
I wasn’t able to respond to what she said, but all I knew is, I have to go to the hospital.
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Dara’s POV
I woke up because someone was shaking me. I opened my eyes and saw my best friend.
“Dara, I have to go okay?” he said.
“He…he’s in the hospital. I’ll go there first.” He continued.
‘Ji..Jiyong’s in the hospital? What happened?’ I said to myself.
“Can I come?” I said before a yawn came out of my mouth.
“Just stay here… I’m afraid…that you’re heart won’t take it anymore.”
flashbacks of the past [1:21 AM]
Seunghyun’s POV
“You! What are you still doing here? You’re supposed to hate me too! God! It was really stupid. I did it so that Dara will blame you for everything. Now, my plan backfires. She hates me now! And please, I don’t want your sympathy and…”
She was talking so much that I couldn’t even reply. So, I did the thing that could shut her up. I held her head with my hands and crushed my lips on her.
I know, I surprised her because after I pulled away, she had that what-just-happened look on her face.
I laughed.
“I knew it would shut you up. Now, would you please let me speak?”
She didn’t say any word, most likely because she still can’t get over the kiss. But she did nod her head.
So, with her permission, I started talking.
“I should be the on to say sorry to you. If I didn’t say those words, you wouldn’t have done it. So, I’ll take all the blame. But, Ms. Park Bom, could you please give this jackass another chance?”
I saw her look down and I took it as a ‘no’.
‘This is your punishment for being a jackass Seunghyun!’ I said as I mentally punch myself.
My thoughts were interrupted when she began to speak.
“I’m afraid to be hurt again. I’ve already done a lot of stupid things because of you. I don’t think I can risk being hurt again. I might even go crazy!”
I stared at her straight in her eyes to show the sincerity of what I am about to say.
“Look, I’m not going to promise that’s I’ll never hurt you again. I can promise you one thing though. I promise, I will love no other woman but you.”
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Taeyang’s POV
I got a call from Jiyong earlier. I can’t believe Bom-noona would do such thing. Dara must be upset.
So, I rushed to their house because I know, my best friend needs some comfort.
But, when I arrived in their house, I saw Jiyong hugging Dara.
‘Taeyang! You’re so stupid!’ I said to myself. Once again, I forgot that he’s her boyfriend, and he’ll be there to comfort her.
‘I guess I’m not needed here.’ So, I silently crept out of the house, not waning to disturb them.
I was about to enter my car when I heard a phone ringing. I followed the sound and saw a phone inside Jiyong’s car. Good thing, the window was open so, I grabbed the phone.
I looked at the caller ID and noticed that an unregistered number is calling Jiyong.
I hesitated for a few moments whether to answer it or not. But, as I remembered that I don’t want to interrupt Jiyong and Dara inside the house, I just answered it.
I was about to say hello, but the person on the other line must be in a rush, because she won’t even let me speak. So, I just listened.
“Jiyong, this is Karen. Why did you leave? We were not finished yet. And please tell your girlfriend about it already. The sooner she knows, the lesser pain she will feel. Can you..”
I just couldn’t take it anymore! My blood started to boil and my mind went blank.
I couldn’t believe he’s cheating on Dara!
I thought he loves her? If only I knew this will happen, I wouldn’t have given her to him.
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Jiyong’s POV
Dara was pretty upset because of Bom-noona’s confession. But I made her understand the situation. Bom-noona is not that evil. She did it for a reason right?
She was crying non-stop and all I could do is hug her--- comfort her.
Then, we heard a loud ‘bang!’ I looked at the dorr and saw Taeyang standing there. But there was something different about him--- he’s mad!
I let go of Dara and approached my other best friend. He must be upset with Bom-noona too.
As I got near him, I saw him clenching his jaw and his fist.
“TY, what’s wrong?” I asked.
But I never got any answer. All I got were punches from him.
I heard Dara screamed.
“Taeyang! What are you doing? Stop hurting Jiyong!”
She placed herself in between me and Taeyang, probably because she knew that he couldn’t hurt her.
I massaged my now bruised face as I asked him “Why did you punch me man?”
I saw that he was trying his best to control himself not to kill me. But why would he want me dead anyway?
“Why? WHY? A girl named Karen called by the way. She said that you’re not finished yet. DAMNIT JIYONG! You’re cheating on Dara!” he said.
‘What?’ I said to myself as my eyes grew wide.
“Is this true?” Dara asked me with teary eyes.
I just stared at her. I couldn’t say it. It will break her heart more.
“You’re pathetic!” She said as she slapped me on the face.
I watched her leave with Taeyang and I felt my chest began to hurt again.
I followed them outside, not knowing what to do.
Heavy rain fell from the sky as giant tears rolled down my cheeks.
‘Ran after her Jiyong! Ran after her Jiyong!’
So, I did. I ran after the moving car.
I wish Dara could see my tears now, so that she would come back. But the rain… it washed my tears away.
The road was becoming more and more slippery. The car was moving further and further away. And the pain in my chest was becoming more and more unbearable.
I clutched my chest and I slipped on the road.
I curled myself in a ball, hoping to minimize the pain, but it never did. It even got worse.
My eye sight was becoming more blurry and the next thing I saw… was black.
flashbacks of the past [1:21 AM]
Daesung’s POV
“So you mean you’re still in love with that player?”
“Unfortunately…”
I saw Minji grimaced as Chaerin said that.
“Unnie, are you a masochist? Why are you still not over that jerk?” she asked.
I answered for Chaerin. Seriously, Minji sucks in making people feel better.
“You can’t blame her, Min. It’s easy to fall for someone, yet it’s hard to forget. And you can’t force yourself to forget someone, it would be too painful.”
“I knew it! I knew it! You’re speaking based on experience. Oppa, you’re in love...who’s the lucky girl? I can’t believe you didn’t tell me!”
I blushed as she said that. How could I tell her when she keeps on saying that she’s not ready yet? I don’t want to freak her out. I...I don’t want to risk our friendship. So I lied.
“No one...”
“Aish! You’re lying. Your ears turn read when you lie!”
What?! How did she know that? I thought no one would notice.
I looked calm on the outside, but I’m in panic mode in the inside. Minji! Why are you putting me in the hot seat? I need to think something---fast!
“Yah! Let’s not talk about it okay? Chaerin needs our comfort right now and all we did is ignore her. Come on, let’s bring her home.”
I supported Chaerin as we started to walk towards the elevator. Chaerin was having a hard time walking because she got tired of bawling, so I decided to carry her bridal style.
As we entered the elevator, Minji whispered something to me.
“I’ll let it slip this time...but after this... you and I talk... one on one...”
Gulp.
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Minji’s POV
After we brought Chaerin unnie, I asked Daesung oppa to drive me home.
It’s only 1 pm but a lot of things already happened. And I really have a bad feeling that there’s more to come.
Without me even noticing it, we’re already outside of our house.
“Minji…we’re already here.” Daesung oppa said as he nudged me.
“Oh.”
“Minji, are you okay?” he said with concern.
“I’m just frustrated! I mean, could this day get any worst? We went to the hospital to visit Bom unnie, but we end up meeting Seung-ri oppa. Then Chaerin unnie broke down. Then, you lied to me. You won’t tell me about the woman you’re in love with!”
“Minji! Please. Let’s not talk about it today. This day has been crazy. Let’s not make things more complicated.”
‘Aish! He won’t say it. Fine!’
“Okay! Let’s not make things more complicated. Just don’t talk to me until you tell me the truth! God! I thought you trust me. I guess I was wrong.”
With that, I went out of his car and stomped towards our house.
I think he followed me because I felt a hand grabbed me by the arm.
“You want to know the truth? YOU! You’re the one I’m in love with! Now, are you happy?”
I stared at him with disbelief.
How could he joke at this time?
So I punch him on the chest.
"You got mad at me for lying. Now that I've told you the truth, you get even more mad? God, woman!!! Is it the time of the month?" he said as he stopped me from punching him more.
I looked at him, trying to figure out if what he just said is the truth.
“So, you’re not joking?”
“No! Why would I joke about it?”
Silence.
“But…why me?” I asked.
“ Minji, the heart has its reasons, reasons know nothing of. Without reasons at all, I just…fell for you.”
“But oppa, I’m too young. I’m not ready yet.”
I saw a smile appear on his lips.
“Don’t get me wrong okay? I just confessed to you. But I didn’t ask you to be my girlfriend…” I turned deep red as he said that.
‘Oh. Hell. Kill me now! This is so embarrassing. Bad Minji! Don’t ever assume!’
But then, he continued what he was saying.
“I can wait for a few more years, you know… or I could go to the Sahara Desert and walk back to Korea. By the time I arrive here, would you be ready?”
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Dara’s POV
Taeyang and I had some best friend quality time together. We went to the amusement park and we took so many pictures together.
I miss hanging out with my best friend. I really felt bad for ignoring him. No! I really felt bad for not having time for him anymore. I’m such a bad best friend.
After spending the entire afternoon with him, he drove me back to our house.
“Thanks TY. I had fun.” I said as I went out of his car.
“I had fun too. Anyway, I’ll leave now, okay? Bye.”
“Drive safe okay?”
I waved him goodbye and closed the door of his car.
I waited until he was able to go out of the gate before I entered the house.
As I got in, I was shocked to see Jiyong sitting on our living room.
“Ppyongie! Where did you go? I waited for you.” I said as I hugged him.
“Oh…something came up. Sorry.”
Weird. If I ask Jiyong, he usually gives details. Why is he acting like this?
“I didn’t see your car outside. How did you get here?”
“I asked our driver to drop me here. I was too tired to drive.”
“Awww… my Ppyongie is tired. If you’re tired, you could have stayed home instead.” I pouted.
“But, I want to spend time with you.”
I know what he said was sweet. But there’s something wrong with him that I can’t pin point. And why do I have a feeling that something bad is about to happen?
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Bom’s POV
Seunghyun, Jiyong and Dara went to fetch me in the hospital. The doctors said I could go out now.
But instead of being ecstatic (no more hospital food!), I felt the opposite.
Last night, I thought about it already. I’m going to tell them that I’m only pretending. The sooner I tell them, the sooner they will forgive me (I hope…).
So, as we were about to get out of the room, I finally blurted it out.
“I can’t pretend anymore. I don’t have amnesia!”
I saw everyone stared at me. I was so embarrassed because of what I did so I looked away.
“I’m so sorry.”
Then, on my peripheral vision, I saw Dara approaching me.
I faced her and I saw anger in her eyes.
“Who are you and what have you done to my sister?”
After that, she grabbed Jiyong’s hand and dragged him out of the room.
I sat on my bed, cover my face with my hands and cried.
I looked up and saw Seunghyun, still standing there and looking blankly at me.
So, I stood up and started poking him in his chest.
“You! What are you still doing here? You’re supposed to hate me too! God! It was really stupid. I did it so that Dara will blame you for everything. Now, my plan backfires. She hates me now! And please, I don’t want your sympathy and…”
But, I was not able to finish what I said, because Seunghyun grabbed my head with his hands and crashed his lips onto mine.
flashbacks of the past [1:14 AM]
Dara’s POV “Thanks, I really need that.” I said as I let go of Taeyang. “I know. You’re my best friend after all.” He said with a smile on his face. “Speaking of ‘best friend’, where is that other best friend of yours?” I asked as I looked at the hospital entrance. I realized that Jiyong has been gone for a long time. Taeyang must have thought of what to answer because he suddenly became awfully quiet. So I just patiently waited for him to respond. “Ah! He must have seen Minji. She’s visiting noona with Chaerin and Daesung today.” As I heard his response I started hallucinating. I think I’m hearing bomb explosions from the hospital. I cringed and I guess Taeyang saw my expression because he asked “What’s wrong?” “Big problem… you see, Seung-ri’s coming too.” I’m not sure if Taeyang was paying attention to what I just said because he didn’t react at all. All he did was took his phone from his pocket and began typing something. “Yah! Did you hear what I just said?” I shouted as I slap him on his arm. Still he didn’t respond. He continued typing on his phone. ‘Aish! This guy makes me mad sometimes.’ “There! Message sent. Let’s go!” he said as he grabbed my hand. ‘”Wait! Jiyong said I should wait for him here!” I said. Then he smiled again. “Don’t worry, I texted Jiyong already. Using Chaerin and Seung-ri in a sentence is bad enough. And… I don’t want you to experience World War 3.” I hesitated for a few moments. But, I think I heard those bomb explosions once again. I looked at the entrance of the hospital and saw Seung-ri coming in. I pulled Taeyang towards the parking lot and said “Let’s go… I think World War 3 is about to start.” ----------------------- Seung-ri’s POV I was looking for Bom noona’s room but I can’t seem to find it. Seriously, is this a hospital? If I were the patient, I would have died even before I find the emergency room. The nurse in the counter said that I should go to the fifth floor then turn left, then right, then left, then another left…oh wait…it was a right, no…it was left…aish! Great! Now I’m lost--- in a hospital! I decided to trace back my steps and return to the counter and just ask for somebody to assist me. But I suddenly bumped into someone. I saw her widened her eyes as she saw me. Then, she started running away from me and her friends. I didn’t even think. There’s only one thing in my mind right now--- run after her. So I did what my instinct told me, I ran after her. I heard her friend shout something, but I was too focused on catching her that I didn’t even bother listening to it. I saw her enter the elevator and click all the button she could possibly click. The elevator door was about to close when I was able to get it. The door closed and we heard a loud crash. The lights turned off and the elevator shut down. I looked at her. She curled herself up in a ball and she hid her face from me. “Chaerin, are you okay?” “This is your fault! That’s why were stuck here! I hate you!” “You’re blaming me? God! You were the one who pushed all those button. The poor elevator couldn’t function well because of you.” Silence. She didn’t respond. So, I broke the silence. “Chaerin… we need to talk.” “I’m not talking to you.” “Then why are you responding?” “That doesn’t change the fact that I still hate you.” I looked at her straight in the eyes and all I saw was fire. She was really angry with me. After all those years, she still can’t forgive me. “Chaerin, for once… I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate.” Another silence. “There’s no need for you to talk… just…just listen to me…” Then, I started explaining what really happened. From Anj to the gay thing, I said everything to her in details. “I still saw you kiss her.” “She came there to ask for comfort. She was not in her proper mind. The next thing I know, she was kissing me. I swear… I didn’t kiss back.” “Hmm… you didn’t even stop it either.” ‘Aish! She’s not making it easy for me.’ “Look, I was checking if I still have feelings for her. But as she kissed me, I didn’t feel any spark anymore. That time, I realized that I’m finally over her. And at the same time, I realized… I realized that I’m in love with you.” “Well that’s too bad… because I can’t help you with your problem.” Then, the elevator lights turned on and the elevator door opened. Chaerin went out immediately. “I saw the way you look at him… are you falling for him already?” I saw her stop. But she just stood there. Silence. It means yes right? I saw the elevator door slowly close, so before it finally closes, I just got to say this to her. “Chaerin… just… just make sure he’s there to catch you…” -------------- Chaerin’s POV “Chaerin… just… just make sure he’s there to catch you…” I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I can’t take it anymore… I broke down there, in front of the elevator. I didn’t care if someone sees me. I just…I just need to get it out. Then, I felt someone hugged me from behind. I turned around and saw that it was Minji. I couldn’t hide my disappointment when I found out it was her. ‘Damnit Chaerin! You think he’s going come back and hug you?’ “Unnie, what’s wrong?” I hugged Minji tighter and cried on her shoulders. “Minji… he told me he loves me…” “Unnie…I thought you’re over him already. I thought you like my brother.” “I thought so too… But I guess I was wrong…” “So you mean you’re still in love with that player?” “Unfortunately…”
flashbacks of the past [1:13 AM]
Anj Tiu
November 15, 1990
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