Monday, May 17, 2010
flashbacks of the past [1:37 AM]
Someone’s POV
A letter addresses to me arrived earlier. I stared at the return address and smiled as I read that it’s from my sister.
I sat on the white sand and enjoyed the soft breeze as it touched my face while opening the envelope.
Then, I started reading it.
‘Oppa! How have you been? You transferred to another place with no internet? (You’re making me write a LETTER! Are you sure there’s no internet there?)’
I laughed. Even up to now, she’s till so childish.
‘Anyway, Jiyong oppa and Dara unnie just celebrated there seventh year anniversary a few days ago. Taeyang (even after 5 years, I still can’t believe they named his after you!) and Gara wrote a song for them. Awww! Jiyong oppa and Dara unnie are so lucky to have them as kids. They’re very smart… I mean, they’re 5! And they wrote that song on their own!’
‘Bom unnie and Seunghyun oppa was there too with their son. And guess what, Bom-unnie is two months pregnant!’
Wow. After 7 years. Shin-woo will now have a baby brother or sister. Here I thought he’s going to be the only child. Bom noona and Seunghyun needs to stop being so workaholic.
‘As usual, Chaerin unnie is pregnant again. It’s kinda scary oppa. I mean, she and Seung-ri oppa were only married for five years, yet they already have 5 kids! Their kids are popping everywhere.’
This earned a chuckle from me. Haha. Seung-ri and Chaerin can’t really keep their hands off each other.
But, my laughter stopped as I read the rest of the letter.
‘Oppa, my wedding is near. I wish you could come. Ever since mom and dad died, you became my dad.
My wedding day would be the happiest (because I’ll be married to Daesung!) and the saddest day of my life. You know why? Because no one would give me away. Dad’s not here, you’re not here.’
The letter was smudged because a single tear fell from my eye.
‘But, Jiyong oppa volunteered to do it. So, no worries.
I felt bad for him though. He’s trying too hard to fill in the spot you left oppa. But, he could never replace you.
So, oppa...when will you come back?
Love, Minji(Your little sister who wants you back)’
You know I can’t go back now Minji. For them, I am already dead. I’m so sorry.
Then, I felt someone hugged my from behind.
I looked back and saw it was her. So, I gave her a peck on the lips.
“Mr. Dong Youngbae, the lunch is ready. The kids are there already. Let’s go.”
“I’m so lucky to have you as my wife Jamie.”
I stood up and scooped her in my arms. I carried her bridal style until we reach the table.
Yes. I changed my name to Dong Youngbae. I’m married to a beautiful woman named Jamie and I have 2 healthy sons. And I’m happy. And I’m planning to keep it that way.
flashbacks of the past [1:22 AM]
Taeyang’s POV
‘I misunderstood everything. I’m so stupid. I should have asked first. But, I’ve done it already. I take all the blame. I just need to fix this.’ That’s what I said to myself as I drove back home.
When I arrived, Dara was still there, talking to my little sister, Minji.
She looked up and gave me a smile. But, even though no matter how many times she will deny it, I know that smile is just fake.
I approached her and grabbed her hand.
She just followed me and didn’t even ask where we are going.
After a few minutes we arrived in the hospital and I led her to HIS room.
I saw her cover her mouth as she was trying not to cry aloud. Here we are, looking through the glass mirror. Jiyong was lying on the bed, still unconscious. Tubes were all over and machines where attached to his body.
(A/N. I had a classmate, she’s 18 btw, who had a heart attack lately and there were a lot of things attached to her body. Sorry I don’t know what it’s called. But she told it’s for some kind of a test. It will be attached to your body for 24 hours I think.)
“Remember the day we went to the amusement park? It was the day Jiyong had his first attack. That’s why he didn’t come back for you. You told me that when I drove you home that day, he was there. Unfortunately, he escaped the hospital because he doesn’t want you to worry. That’s what the call about. Karen… she’s the doctor who help Jiyong. What she meant when she said ‘they’re not finished yet’ is that they were not able to finished running all the test on him. And when we left him, he ran after us. And his heart couldn’t take it anymore.”
I didn’t finish what I wanted to say because I know that it was all my fault. My best friend is lying there inside because of my stupidity.
I looked at Dara and I saw her face covered with tears.
‘I thought I’m not capable of hurting you, but I did.’
On the corner of my eye, I saw Bom-noona and Seunghyun coming. At first, I thought that their presence won’t help considering of what Bom-noona did.
But contrary to what I thought, Dara ran towards Bom-noona as she saw her.
Bom-noona hugged her back and asked her. “I thought you hated me.”
“Yes, I did. But now, I just need a hug from my sister.”
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Dara’s POV
I held his hand as I wait for him to wake up.
It’s been a day since Taeyang drove me here, yet Jiyong has not woken up.
I nearly lost all hope when I felt him move.
His eyes slowly opened. He looked around, maybe trying to comprehend where he is.
Then, he faced me.
“I’m sorry if you have to see me this way.” He said with such a gloomy face.
I couldn’t help but cry. Why is he in this state? Why him of all the people?
“Honey Bunny, don’t cry.” He said.
“How many times do I have to tell you not to call me that?”
He chuckled. But he winced not long after. Even laughter could bring him pain.
“I want to be the rain. You know why? So that every time you cry, I would just wash your tears away.”
I held his face and caressed it.
Then, we heard a knock on the door and a doctor went inside, shortly after.
“Good morning. Ms Park, I’m Doctor Karen and I handle Mr. Kwon’s case. Now, I have some bad news for you.”
I squeezed Jiyong’s hand gently because of too much nervousness.
“Mr. Kwon needs a heart transplant as soon as possible for he could die in his next attack. But, the problem is, we couldn’t find a heart donor compatible to him.”
As she finished saying that, tears automatically fell from my eyes.
‘I can’t…I can’t lose Ji. He’s my life.’
This time, it was Ji’s turn to squeeze my hand. For some odd reasons, I find it comforting.
I wiped my tears with my other hand and asked the doctor, “Doc, is there anything else we could do now?”
The the doctor looked on the ground, maybe because she couldn’t say it straight to my face.
“Without the donor, we couldn’t do anything now except pray that he’s not going to have another attack.”
There. I lost it. All the hope I have left.
So, after the doctor closed the door as she went out, I faced Jiyong.
“I know you're going and I can't make you stay. But before you go, I want you to know... I'll love you anyway...”
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Jiyong’s POV
When I woke up, there was no one holding my hand. I panicked a little and I looked around. I saw my best friend, Taeyang sitting on the couch on the left side of my bed.
He looked at me and I knew he’s about to tell me something serious.
“You have no idea of how much I want to be in your position.” He said.
“You want a defective heart? You can have it.” I joked.
“No! What I mean is… you have no idea of how much I want to be with Dara, to be able to hold her hand, to be able to say how much I love her…” he said followed by a deep sigh.
I didn’t respond. I just want to hear what he wants to say.
“…but, you know what? I sacrificed my own happiness because I love you too much. Our friendship is more important to me than my own happiness.”
I smiled and I felt proud to have him as my best friend. But that smile quickly turned into a frown as I remembered something.
“I know…I know that you loved her every since. Actions can never lie. The way you look at her, the way you laughed when she would crack a joke. It shows. I’m not that blind. But, I still pursued her. I was selfish. I thought of my own happiness. Maybe that’s why God is punishing me…”
He just listened to me, like how I listened to him earlier. So, I continued talking.
“But, I’m dying. Can’t you see it? TY, promise me this! If I die, can you please take care of Dara? She acts so strong, yet she’s very fragile. I know, you love her so much that you won’t make her cry. Just…please… PROMISE ME!”
He gave me a sincere smile and started talking once again.
“You know, I always thought that if I’ll finally have her, I would be happy. But when I was taking care of her after that misunderstanding, I could see the sadness in her eyes. So now, I already accepted the fact that I can never make her happy. And… I’d rather see her happy with someone else, than be miserable with me.”
After he said that, he stood up and approached the door.
I gave him a questioning look.
“What are you doing TY?
He looked back at me and said, “I’m just doing the right thing.”
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(After a few days)
Dara’s POV
I just couldn’t hide it. I was crying yet, at the same time smiling. You may call me a crazy person, but I don’t care.
As I went out of the room, I saw Bom-unnie looking so concerned.
“Dara, are you okay?”
“Unnie. They found one. They found a heart donor.” I said as I hugged my sister.
I cried and cried on her shoulders until I have no tears left to shed.
Now, all I have to pray for is a successful surgery.
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Minji’s POV
After eight hours of surgery, Jiyong oppa has returned to his room.
I could see Dara-unnie’s very happy that the surgery went well.
Then, the doctor went inside the room.
“Doctor, can we thank the family of the donor?” Dara unnie said.
“Of course.” The doctor answered.
“Can you lead me to them?” She asked.
“No need… she’s here.”
Then, the doctor looked at me, and I couldn’t keep it anymore.
“I’m so sorry unnie. I tried to stop him… but he already made up his mind.”
I hand her the envelope my brother left.
“Before he did it, he left this. He said I should give it to you.”
Dara unnie stood there while holding the envelope, trying to comprehend what’s happening.
With her shaking hands, she opened the letter and read it.
‘Dara, Should i be happy because you're my friend? Or be sad, because that's all we're gonna be?
But you know what? I would rather be your friend, who is secretly in love with you, than be a stranger, who doesn’t even know you exist. For years, I tried to forget you. No matter what I do, I just couldn’t move on. I mean, how could I move on if I’m still in love with you? But, like what I said to Jiyong a few days ago, I’d rather see you happy with someone than be miserable with me.
Forgive me for doing this, but the circumstances left me with no choice. Even if it hurts me too much, I’m glad to see two of my most favorite people happy together. I know, he’s your happiness. So, I did something for you not to lose your happiness--- I gave him my own heart.
To Jiyong, please take care of Dara. I’ll haunt you if you make her cry! That’s not a threat. It’s a promise.
Your best friend,
Taeyang
PS. Dara, now that I’m gone, I hope you take care of my sister. You know that I’m the only family she has.’
After Dara unnie read it, she broke down.
“TY, how could you?” she asked. But, we all know that it would be left unanswered.
I saw a shadow on the corner and I knew exactly who it is. But instead of calling his name, I shut my mouth. I know he had a reason for doing this and I don’t want to be the one to ruin his plan.
So, I went towards Jiyong oppa’s bed and told him, “Please take care of my oppa’s heart.”
After I said that, I looked back at the corner to see if he’s still there. But, I saw nothing.
flashbacks of the past [1:22 AM]
Dara’s POV
I couldn’t take it anymore. Why is this happening? My life used to be perfect. Now, it’s still perfect…. a perfect disaster!
My sister lied. My boyfriend, I mean, my ex boyfriend, cheated on me. Damn! Thank God Taeyang is here.
What would I do without him? Right now, he’s the only person I trust.
If only…if only I didn’t stop loving him, I would be the luckiest woman in the world.
FLASHBACK
It’s been ten years since the first time I met Taeyang in the woods, the first time I met my savior, the first time I met my best friend, the first time I met my first love.
Yes! I, Dara Park, am in love with my best friend Taeyang for ten years!
But, too bad, I guess he doesn’t feel the same.
Ever since this school year started, he had been avoiding me like a plague.
Hmph! He said he want to hang out with REAL BOYS this time. Come on! That Jiyong guy…a BOY?! He’s a FAG!!!
Or maybe I’m acting like this because he keeps on annoying me.
But one day, I noticed that he was avoiding me too. I guess Taeyang warned him not to bug me.
So, I went on with my life without that prick.
Sigh. I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I guess I miss him.
You know what? I think I like the attention I get from him. It’s as if I’m the only one he sees. That’s why he kept on teasing me.
Every single day he avoided me, I miss him more and more. And without me realizing it, I’ve already fallen in love with him. And there’s no turning back.
END OF FLASHBACK
Recalling that memory pained me even more. God! It hurts so much. Every time I think of Taeyang, I also think about him!
How I wish I didn’t fell for that jerk.
I wish… I wish I didn’t get over Taeyang. I wish I’m in love with him instead… because I know… he will never ever hurt me.
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Seung-ri’s POV
I accept my defeat. She’s falling for him now. I guess I’ll just die alone and miserable.
I was alone in our house and here I am sulking in my room. I looked outside the window and saw that the storm has gotten stronger.
Then, I heard the door bell ring. Since I was the only one home, I went downstairs to check who could probably be outside at this time.
It couldn’t be Jiyong hyung, he had his own keys and I doubt if he’ll be home tonight since he said Dara noona’s upset over something.
I didn’t even bother to turn the lights on the living room on, so when I opened the door, all I saw is a silhouette of a woman.
Then, there was a sudden flash of light from the lightning, so I had a glimpse of who my visitor is.
“CHAERIN! What are you doing here?”
She was wet from head to toe and she was hugging herself because of too much cold.
“Can I come in? I’m freezing.” She said as she tried to control the chattering of her teeth.
I let her in and I immediately ran towards the bathroom to get some towels.
When I got back, she was still standing near the door.
“What are you doing to yourself?” I said as I gave her one towel to dry herself. Using the other towel, I help her get rid of the excess water in her hair.
“This is not helping.” I said as I drop the towel on the floor. I ran upstairs in my room and took some clean clothes. I ran back immediately and hand her the clothes.
She stared at me with a questioning look.
“The bathroom’s over there. Change into this.” I said as I pointed where the bathroom was.
She didn’t say another word but just followed what I said.
As she closed the bathroom door, a lot of things went inside my mind.
What is she doing here? Taeyang hyung might have done something to her. No! He couldn’t even kill a fly. He’s not capable of hurting her. So why is she here? Why?
My thoughts were interrupted when the bathroom door opened.
She was wearing my clothes and I never thought that she would look sexy in this.
Damn Seung-ri! Control your hormones!
She approached and me and said “Thanks.”
Then she looked at the ground as if she saw something interesting there.
I just stared at her. I just couldn’t believe that she’s here—in front of me.
“I thought you hate me so much that you don’t want to see me again.” I said out loud. I just have to say it. This is a really confusing situation.
‘Yes. I do hate you! I hate you because even if you hurt me, I still miss you. I hate you because even after all this years; I still want to be with you. I hate you… I hate you because even after all the things you’ve done… I’m still in love with you.”
After she said that, I did the only thing I could possibly do right now. I kissed her.
I guess I caught her off guard that’s why she gasped. I took it as my advantage and slipped my tongue in mouth. All years of longing were converted to passion. We kissed like our life depended on it.
She wrapped her legs around my waist and she locked her fingers on my hair. I pushed her on the wall for support as I attacked her neck. I heard a moan escape from her mouth as I bit her neck. I was so turned on by her moan, so I started to kiss her on the mouth again.
But, I suddenly heard my phone ringing.
As I let go of her, both of us were breathless. She was blushing madly, maybe because of what we just did or to what we almost did.
I took my phone on the table and saw that it was my brother calling.
“My brother has the worst timing in the world.” I said softly.
I pressed the accept button, expecting my brother, but it was a voice of a woman.
I wasn’t able to respond to what she said, but all I knew is, I have to go to the hospital.
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Dara’s POV
I woke up because someone was shaking me. I opened my eyes and saw my best friend.
“Dara, I have to go okay?” he said.
“He…he’s in the hospital. I’ll go there first.” He continued.
‘Ji..Jiyong’s in the hospital? What happened?’ I said to myself.
“Can I come?” I said before a yawn came out of my mouth.
“Just stay here… I’m afraid…that you’re heart won’t take it anymore.”
flashbacks of the past [1:21 AM]
Seunghyun’s POV
“You! What are you still doing here? You’re supposed to hate me too! God! It was really stupid. I did it so that Dara will blame you for everything. Now, my plan backfires. She hates me now! And please, I don’t want your sympathy and…”
She was talking so much that I couldn’t even reply. So, I did the thing that could shut her up. I held her head with my hands and crushed my lips on her.
I know, I surprised her because after I pulled away, she had that what-just-happened look on her face.
I laughed.
“I knew it would shut you up. Now, would you please let me speak?”
She didn’t say any word, most likely because she still can’t get over the kiss. But she did nod her head.
So, with her permission, I started talking.
“I should be the on to say sorry to you. If I didn’t say those words, you wouldn’t have done it. So, I’ll take all the blame. But, Ms. Park Bom, could you please give this jackass another chance?”
I saw her look down and I took it as a ‘no’.
‘This is your punishment for being a jackass Seunghyun!’ I said as I mentally punch myself.
My thoughts were interrupted when she began to speak.
“I’m afraid to be hurt again. I’ve already done a lot of stupid things because of you. I don’t think I can risk being hurt again. I might even go crazy!”
I stared at her straight in her eyes to show the sincerity of what I am about to say.
“Look, I’m not going to promise that’s I’ll never hurt you again. I can promise you one thing though. I promise, I will love no other woman but you.”
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Taeyang’s POV
I got a call from Jiyong earlier. I can’t believe Bom-noona would do such thing. Dara must be upset.
So, I rushed to their house because I know, my best friend needs some comfort.
But, when I arrived in their house, I saw Jiyong hugging Dara.
‘Taeyang! You’re so stupid!’ I said to myself. Once again, I forgot that he’s her boyfriend, and he’ll be there to comfort her.
‘I guess I’m not needed here.’ So, I silently crept out of the house, not waning to disturb them.
I was about to enter my car when I heard a phone ringing. I followed the sound and saw a phone inside Jiyong’s car. Good thing, the window was open so, I grabbed the phone.
I looked at the caller ID and noticed that an unregistered number is calling Jiyong.
I hesitated for a few moments whether to answer it or not. But, as I remembered that I don’t want to interrupt Jiyong and Dara inside the house, I just answered it.
I was about to say hello, but the person on the other line must be in a rush, because she won’t even let me speak. So, I just listened.
“Jiyong, this is Karen. Why did you leave? We were not finished yet. And please tell your girlfriend about it already. The sooner she knows, the lesser pain she will feel. Can you..”
I just couldn’t take it anymore! My blood started to boil and my mind went blank.
I couldn’t believe he’s cheating on Dara!
I thought he loves her? If only I knew this will happen, I wouldn’t have given her to him.
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Jiyong’s POV
Dara was pretty upset because of Bom-noona’s confession. But I made her understand the situation. Bom-noona is not that evil. She did it for a reason right?
She was crying non-stop and all I could do is hug her--- comfort her.
Then, we heard a loud ‘bang!’ I looked at the dorr and saw Taeyang standing there. But there was something different about him--- he’s mad!
I let go of Dara and approached my other best friend. He must be upset with Bom-noona too.
As I got near him, I saw him clenching his jaw and his fist.
“TY, what’s wrong?” I asked.
But I never got any answer. All I got were punches from him.
I heard Dara screamed.
“Taeyang! What are you doing? Stop hurting Jiyong!”
She placed herself in between me and Taeyang, probably because she knew that he couldn’t hurt her.
I massaged my now bruised face as I asked him “Why did you punch me man?”
I saw that he was trying his best to control himself not to kill me. But why would he want me dead anyway?
“Why? WHY? A girl named Karen called by the way. She said that you’re not finished yet. DAMNIT JIYONG! You’re cheating on Dara!” he said.
‘What?’ I said to myself as my eyes grew wide.
“Is this true?” Dara asked me with teary eyes.
I just stared at her. I couldn’t say it. It will break her heart more.
“You’re pathetic!” She said as she slapped me on the face.
I watched her leave with Taeyang and I felt my chest began to hurt again.
I followed them outside, not knowing what to do.
Heavy rain fell from the sky as giant tears rolled down my cheeks.
‘Ran after her Jiyong! Ran after her Jiyong!’
So, I did. I ran after the moving car.
I wish Dara could see my tears now, so that she would come back. But the rain… it washed my tears away.
The road was becoming more and more slippery. The car was moving further and further away. And the pain in my chest was becoming more and more unbearable.
I clutched my chest and I slipped on the road.
I curled myself in a ball, hoping to minimize the pain, but it never did. It even got worse.
My eye sight was becoming more blurry and the next thing I saw… was black.
flashbacks of the past [1:21 AM]
Daesung’s POV
“So you mean you’re still in love with that player?”
“Unfortunately…”
I saw Minji grimaced as Chaerin said that.
“Unnie, are you a masochist? Why are you still not over that jerk?” she asked.
I answered for Chaerin. Seriously, Minji sucks in making people feel better.
“You can’t blame her, Min. It’s easy to fall for someone, yet it’s hard to forget. And you can’t force yourself to forget someone, it would be too painful.”
“I knew it! I knew it! You’re speaking based on experience. Oppa, you’re in love...who’s the lucky girl? I can’t believe you didn’t tell me!”
I blushed as she said that. How could I tell her when she keeps on saying that she’s not ready yet? I don’t want to freak her out. I...I don’t want to risk our friendship. So I lied.
“No one...”
“Aish! You’re lying. Your ears turn read when you lie!”
What?! How did she know that? I thought no one would notice.
I looked calm on the outside, but I’m in panic mode in the inside. Minji! Why are you putting me in the hot seat? I need to think something---fast!
“Yah! Let’s not talk about it okay? Chaerin needs our comfort right now and all we did is ignore her. Come on, let’s bring her home.”
I supported Chaerin as we started to walk towards the elevator. Chaerin was having a hard time walking because she got tired of bawling, so I decided to carry her bridal style.
As we entered the elevator, Minji whispered something to me.
“I’ll let it slip this time...but after this... you and I talk... one on one...”
Gulp.
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Minji’s POV
After we brought Chaerin unnie, I asked Daesung oppa to drive me home.
It’s only 1 pm but a lot of things already happened. And I really have a bad feeling that there’s more to come.
Without me even noticing it, we’re already outside of our house.
“Minji…we’re already here.” Daesung oppa said as he nudged me.
“Oh.”
“Minji, are you okay?” he said with concern.
“I’m just frustrated! I mean, could this day get any worst? We went to the hospital to visit Bom unnie, but we end up meeting Seung-ri oppa. Then Chaerin unnie broke down. Then, you lied to me. You won’t tell me about the woman you’re in love with!”
“Minji! Please. Let’s not talk about it today. This day has been crazy. Let’s not make things more complicated.”
‘Aish! He won’t say it. Fine!’
“Okay! Let’s not make things more complicated. Just don’t talk to me until you tell me the truth! God! I thought you trust me. I guess I was wrong.”
With that, I went out of his car and stomped towards our house.
I think he followed me because I felt a hand grabbed me by the arm.
“You want to know the truth? YOU! You’re the one I’m in love with! Now, are you happy?”
I stared at him with disbelief.
How could he joke at this time?
So I punch him on the chest.
"You got mad at me for lying. Now that I've told you the truth, you get even more mad? God, woman!!! Is it the time of the month?" he said as he stopped me from punching him more.
I looked at him, trying to figure out if what he just said is the truth.
“So, you’re not joking?”
“No! Why would I joke about it?”
Silence.
“But…why me?” I asked.
“ Minji, the heart has its reasons, reasons know nothing of. Without reasons at all, I just…fell for you.”
“But oppa, I’m too young. I’m not ready yet.”
I saw a smile appear on his lips.
“Don’t get me wrong okay? I just confessed to you. But I didn’t ask you to be my girlfriend…” I turned deep red as he said that.
‘Oh. Hell. Kill me now! This is so embarrassing. Bad Minji! Don’t ever assume!’
But then, he continued what he was saying.
“I can wait for a few more years, you know… or I could go to the Sahara Desert and walk back to Korea. By the time I arrive here, would you be ready?”
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Dara’s POV
Taeyang and I had some best friend quality time together. We went to the amusement park and we took so many pictures together.
I miss hanging out with my best friend. I really felt bad for ignoring him. No! I really felt bad for not having time for him anymore. I’m such a bad best friend.
After spending the entire afternoon with him, he drove me back to our house.
“Thanks TY. I had fun.” I said as I went out of his car.
“I had fun too. Anyway, I’ll leave now, okay? Bye.”
“Drive safe okay?”
I waved him goodbye and closed the door of his car.
I waited until he was able to go out of the gate before I entered the house.
As I got in, I was shocked to see Jiyong sitting on our living room.
“Ppyongie! Where did you go? I waited for you.” I said as I hugged him.
“Oh…something came up. Sorry.”
Weird. If I ask Jiyong, he usually gives details. Why is he acting like this?
“I didn’t see your car outside. How did you get here?”
“I asked our driver to drop me here. I was too tired to drive.”
“Awww… my Ppyongie is tired. If you’re tired, you could have stayed home instead.” I pouted.
“But, I want to spend time with you.”
I know what he said was sweet. But there’s something wrong with him that I can’t pin point. And why do I have a feeling that something bad is about to happen?
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Bom’s POV
Seunghyun, Jiyong and Dara went to fetch me in the hospital. The doctors said I could go out now.
But instead of being ecstatic (no more hospital food!), I felt the opposite.
Last night, I thought about it already. I’m going to tell them that I’m only pretending. The sooner I tell them, the sooner they will forgive me (I hope…).
So, as we were about to get out of the room, I finally blurted it out.
“I can’t pretend anymore. I don’t have amnesia!”
I saw everyone stared at me. I was so embarrassed because of what I did so I looked away.
“I’m so sorry.”
Then, on my peripheral vision, I saw Dara approaching me.
I faced her and I saw anger in her eyes.
“Who are you and what have you done to my sister?”
After that, she grabbed Jiyong’s hand and dragged him out of the room.
I sat on my bed, cover my face with my hands and cried.
I looked up and saw Seunghyun, still standing there and looking blankly at me.
So, I stood up and started poking him in his chest.
“You! What are you still doing here? You’re supposed to hate me too! God! It was really stupid. I did it so that Dara will blame you for everything. Now, my plan backfires. She hates me now! And please, I don’t want your sympathy and…”
But, I was not able to finish what I said, because Seunghyun grabbed my head with his hands and crashed his lips onto mine.
flashbacks of the past [1:14 AM]
Dara’s POV “Thanks, I really need that.” I said as I let go of Taeyang. “I know. You’re my best friend after all.” He said with a smile on his face. “Speaking of ‘best friend’, where is that other best friend of yours?” I asked as I looked at the hospital entrance. I realized that Jiyong has been gone for a long time. Taeyang must have thought of what to answer because he suddenly became awfully quiet. So I just patiently waited for him to respond. “Ah! He must have seen Minji. She’s visiting noona with Chaerin and Daesung today.” As I heard his response I started hallucinating. I think I’m hearing bomb explosions from the hospital. I cringed and I guess Taeyang saw my expression because he asked “What’s wrong?” “Big problem… you see, Seung-ri’s coming too.” I’m not sure if Taeyang was paying attention to what I just said because he didn’t react at all. All he did was took his phone from his pocket and began typing something. “Yah! Did you hear what I just said?” I shouted as I slap him on his arm. Still he didn’t respond. He continued typing on his phone. ‘Aish! This guy makes me mad sometimes.’ “There! Message sent. Let’s go!” he said as he grabbed my hand. ‘”Wait! Jiyong said I should wait for him here!” I said. Then he smiled again. “Don’t worry, I texted Jiyong already. Using Chaerin and Seung-ri in a sentence is bad enough. And… I don’t want you to experience World War 3.” I hesitated for a few moments. But, I think I heard those bomb explosions once again. I looked at the entrance of the hospital and saw Seung-ri coming in. I pulled Taeyang towards the parking lot and said “Let’s go… I think World War 3 is about to start.” ----------------------- Seung-ri’s POV I was looking for Bom noona’s room but I can’t seem to find it. Seriously, is this a hospital? If I were the patient, I would have died even before I find the emergency room. The nurse in the counter said that I should go to the fifth floor then turn left, then right, then left, then another left…oh wait…it was a right, no…it was left…aish! Great! Now I’m lost--- in a hospital! I decided to trace back my steps and return to the counter and just ask for somebody to assist me. But I suddenly bumped into someone. I saw her widened her eyes as she saw me. Then, she started running away from me and her friends. I didn’t even think. There’s only one thing in my mind right now--- run after her. So I did what my instinct told me, I ran after her. I heard her friend shout something, but I was too focused on catching her that I didn’t even bother listening to it. I saw her enter the elevator and click all the button she could possibly click. The elevator door was about to close when I was able to get it. The door closed and we heard a loud crash. The lights turned off and the elevator shut down. I looked at her. She curled herself up in a ball and she hid her face from me. “Chaerin, are you okay?” “This is your fault! That’s why were stuck here! I hate you!” “You’re blaming me? God! You were the one who pushed all those button. The poor elevator couldn’t function well because of you.” Silence. She didn’t respond. So, I broke the silence. “Chaerin… we need to talk.” “I’m not talking to you.” “Then why are you responding?” “That doesn’t change the fact that I still hate you.” I looked at her straight in the eyes and all I saw was fire. She was really angry with me. After all those years, she still can’t forgive me. “Chaerin, for once… I wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate.” Another silence. “There’s no need for you to talk… just…just listen to me…” Then, I started explaining what really happened. From Anj to the gay thing, I said everything to her in details. “I still saw you kiss her.” “She came there to ask for comfort. She was not in her proper mind. The next thing I know, she was kissing me. I swear… I didn’t kiss back.” “Hmm… you didn’t even stop it either.” ‘Aish! She’s not making it easy for me.’ “Look, I was checking if I still have feelings for her. But as she kissed me, I didn’t feel any spark anymore. That time, I realized that I’m finally over her. And at the same time, I realized… I realized that I’m in love with you.” “Well that’s too bad… because I can’t help you with your problem.” Then, the elevator lights turned on and the elevator door opened. Chaerin went out immediately. “I saw the way you look at him… are you falling for him already?” I saw her stop. But she just stood there. Silence. It means yes right? I saw the elevator door slowly close, so before it finally closes, I just got to say this to her. “Chaerin… just… just make sure he’s there to catch you…” -------------- Chaerin’s POV “Chaerin… just… just make sure he’s there to catch you…” I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I can’t take it anymore… I broke down there, in front of the elevator. I didn’t care if someone sees me. I just…I just need to get it out. Then, I felt someone hugged me from behind. I turned around and saw that it was Minji. I couldn’t hide my disappointment when I found out it was her. ‘Damnit Chaerin! You think he’s going come back and hug you?’ “Unnie, what’s wrong?” I hugged Minji tighter and cried on her shoulders. “Minji… he told me he loves me…” “Unnie…I thought you’re over him already. I thought you like my brother.” “I thought so too… But I guess I was wrong…” “So you mean you’re still in love with that player?” “Unfortunately…”
flashbacks of the past [1:13 AM]
Bom’s POV I woke up feeling pain all over my body. My eyes roamed the room. It felt weird waking up in a different. Confused, I asked my sister, who was sitting beside my bed while holding me hand. “Where am I?” I saw her eyes widened in shock. She stood up, let go of my hand and went to Seunghyun. Then, the unexpected happened. She slapped him! “This is all your fault. Now my unnie can’t remember anything! I hate you!” she was about to punch him on the chest but Jiyong stopped her. ‘What?! Can’t remember anything?’ “Honey, punching him won’t make Bom-noona remember. Why don’t we just call the doctor?” Jiyong said as he escorted Dara out of the room. Since Seunghyun was the only one left in the room with me, I stared at him. I guess he still hasn’t recovered from the shock (Dara’s slap). Then, I thought of a crazy idea. ‘They think I have amnesia, and so I’m going to play along. This way, Dara would hate Seunghyun. If I can’t have Seunghyun, I’ll make sure he can’t have Dara also.’ ------------- “There seems to be no problem with her. I’ve check her x-rays several times and I didn’t see any fracture in her skull. Most likely, it’s just a head trauma.” Doctor Leen explained to Dara. Dara hugged me and I felt my shoulders becoming wet. “Unnie, don’t you remember me? It’s me Dara, your sister!” I wanted to cry and stop this pretension. My sister is crying because of me, because of my selfishness. But, there’s no turning back now. I can’t say that I have no amnesia. If I say the truth, Dara might get mad at me. So, I did the only thing I could do right now. I hugged my sister back. ------------ Seunghyun’s POV Jiyong practically dragged Dara out of the hospital. Now, I’m here alone with Bom (which is the reason why Dara doesn’t want to leave in the first place). Honestly, I don’t know what to say to her considering she can’t remember anything. But then, this is my chance to undo all my mistakes. She can’t remember what I have done anyway. So, I approached her and I could see the shocked expression in her face. “Get away from me! I don’t want to see you!” She screamed as she threw a pillow on me. I stared at her with disbelief. She remembered what I did? But then, she continued what she was saying. “Dara said that you’re the reason why I’m here. If she hates you, then I hate you too. Now get out of my room!” I didn’t wait for her to say it again. I escorted myself out of the room. I sat on the bench near her room to think. I really thought that she remembers everything. ‘No! Bom can’t lie about his thing. God! Seunghyun! Why are you over thinking about this thing? Can’t you just accept that you’re the one to blame?’ ------------------- Bom’s POV Jiyong dragged Dara out of my room. And now, I stuck with the jerk. I saw him walking towards and I panicked. “Get away from me! I don’t want to see you!” I screamed as I threw a pillow on him. I saw the confusion in his face. God! I think I just slipped. Great I just blew my cover. Think fast Bom! Think fast! “Dara said that you’re the reason why I’m here. If she hates you, then I hate you too. Now get out of my room!” To my surprise, he did immediately get out of the room. I didn’t even have to repeat it. ----------- Dara and Jiyong just left and I’m here alone in my room again. For some odd reasons, I’m beginning to enjoy my alone time because these are the times I could actually think. I still felt a little bit guilty- even if a week has already passed already- for pretending not to remember anything especially now, since I could feel Dara’s frustrations. She wants me to remember. That’s the big problem. How could you cure someone who’s not even sick in the first place? Sigh. Then, I saw the door opened and I know who’s about to come in. So, I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep. I heard his footsteps as he was walking towards me. I guess he sat beside my bed. Then, he held my hand. I almost opened my eyes, but I remembered that I’m pretending to be asleep. Damnit Seunghyun, all my anger, all my pain, just one touch, and all of those are being washed away. “You know Bom, I wish you would never remember the past…” he started. ‘What the hell!’ I was really tempted to open my eyes so that I could punch him on the nose, but then, he continued what he was saying. “I want us to start anew. I don’t want you to remember those words I said to you. I don’t want you to remember the pain I inflicted upon you.” I’m speechless. “If only I could turn back time, I would have corrected my mistakes. But, I know I couldn’t. That’s why I’m using your current situation as my chance—my chance to be back in your life again. You’re making it hard for me though. You won’t even let me stay in the same room with you for 5 minutes. But, I can’t blame you. After all the things I have done to you, I deserve this punishment. But just remember, I will not give up. No matter how long it will take, I will make you love me again.” He gave my hand a gentle squeeze before he let it go. I heard his footsteps again, and soon after, I heard the door shut. I opened my eyes when I realized the coast is clear. I look at my hand, the one that Seunghyun held. I could still feel the warmth of his hand in mine. But that’s not what worries me now. ‘Seunghyun, why did you say such things? Is it because you love me, or you’re just feeling guilty?’ ---------------- Dara’s POV We were about to leave the hospital when I suddenly felt thirsty. Jiyong offered to buy some drinks from the vending machine. So I just stayed on the bench outside the hospital. Everything that has been happening for the past week frustrates me. Bom unnie can’t remember anything. It’s been a week already, yet she can’t recall any memory. The doctor said that she can’t find anything wrong with my sister. Damnit! Then, there’s Seunghyun, the guy who caused all of these. But no matter how many times I told him to leave, he never did. “Dara?” I heard someone call my name. When I turned around I saw my bestfriend. “Taeyang! What are you doing here?” “Is that a way of greeting your bestfriend? Normal people would say hello you know.” Taeyang. This guy could make the sun shine in a rainy day. He makes me so happy and I’m so fortunate to have him as my bestfriend. “Seriously, why are you here?” I asked. “I’m going to visit Bom-noona. Maybe if I talk to her, she could remember something.” I don’t know, but I’ve been really affected by Bom-unnie’s amnesia that I would cry every time I remember it. Without me even knowing it, I was already bawling. “Dara, don’t cry. You know I hate it when you cry.” But, no words can ever make me feel better now and I guess Taeyang knows that. So, he gave me what I need most right now--- a hug. Little did I know that someone from afar saw us hugging. ------------- We were already outside of the hospital when Dara said she was thirsty. So being a good boyfriend and all, I offered to buy her some drinks from the vending machine I saw earlier. I left her and went back to the hospital building. When I reached the vending machine, I realized that I have no loose coins. So I went to the hospital cafeteria to buy something there instead. I was walking back, with a can of apple juice in my hand, to the spot where I left Dara earlier. But instead of seeing my girlfriend alone, I saw her in the arms of another man. I felt some pain in my chest and I started to get dizzy. I dropped the juice on floor as I clutched my heart. The pain was getting more and more unbearable as very second passed. ‘Help! Someone…help.’ I wanted to shout but no words would come out of my mouth. I saw a woman pass by, so I grabbed her shoulder. After that everything else turned black.
But now, I really didn’t matter to me if he went out or not. I just want to make sure. Was I able to convince him, or not?
Jiyong’s POV
flashbacks of the past [1:11 AM]
Seunghyun’s POV I was still catching my own breathe when I reached Jiyong. “Jiyong, I need your car keys. Please, this is an emergency.” “Hyung, what happened?” Jiyong hyung asked as he look for his keys. Seunghyun hyung only said one thing: “Bom…” I was Dara stood up from her seat. “What happened to my sister?” she said with concern and panic. “No time I explain. Jiyong give me the keys. I need to catch her.” I responded. “You’re not in the proper state to drive Seunghyun. We’re coming with you. And I’ll drive.” Jiyong said as he grabbed Dara’s hand. “Let’s go.” I said as we started sprinting out of the house. I sat on the passenger seat while Dara sat on the back seat. Jiyong started the car and we were out of the house in no time. We were just in the road for five minutes when Dara suddenly started crying. “Damn Seunghyun! Why did my sister drive off? What have you done to her?” I was unsure how to answer her for I, myself, can’t even think straight right now. “I just said some things to her…” I replied. I look at her in the rear-view mirror and I could see the anger in her eyes. “If something bad happens to her, I swear, I won’t ever forgive you.” She threatened. I bowed my head and just kept quiet. ‘If something bad happens to her, I won’t forgive myself too.’ Bom, please, be safe! I was lost in my own thoughts when I suddenly heard someone speak. “Isn’t that Bom-noona’s car?” Jiyong said as he pointed something. I followed his gazed and my eyes widened in shock. ‘God! No!’ -------------------- Dara was crying on the bench and Jiyong was trying to comfort her. I, on the other hand, was standing near the door of the surgery room, waiting for a doctor to come out with some news. Images of Bom covered in blood circulated my mind. When I saw her unconscious with a pool of her own blood, my mind went blank. It was like I wanted to end my life for I can’t take it anymore. I heard Dara screaming with anger as she launched towards me. She punched me on the chest several times, but I felt no pain. I felt numbed all over. Good thing Jiyong was there. He called the hospital and after a few minutes, an ambulance arrived. (A/N. I actually hate those dying scenes because of an accident in movies and dramas. Oh come one! Someone has to call the ambulance. Your tears won’t make the dying person alive!) And now, here we are, unsure if Bom’s gonna be okay or not. If only I didn’t say those words we would be still in the party, getting drunk and just having fun. Too bad those words came out of my mouth. FLASHBACK “Bom, can we talk outside.” I whispered to her. She frowned at first, but she still nodded. She held my hand and led me to the pool area. As we reached out destination, she started to talk. “You know, I’m so happy I’m finally back--- for good! But, you didn’t look pleased at all. Don’t you want me back?” I gave her a fake smile and said “I’m glad your back.” Seeing her doing that, I took off my shoes and folded my pants so that it won’t get wet. Then, I sat beside her and dipped my legs in the water. “I’ve suffered so much in the States, did you know that? I’ve booked a flight back her in Seoul for several times but in the end, I also cancel it. My dad was really having a hard time with the company. I guess American buyers are really different from Korean buyers. But after years of looking for a solution to our problem, we we’re finally successful. Now, my dad doesn’t need my help there. That’s why I’m back…” She paused for a while but she continued shortly after. “I was like a walking zombie there. My body was working there but my soul is here in Korea. I’m miserable--- miserable without you Seunghyun. I don’t think I could ever live for another year without you by my side. But now, you’re here by my side, yet I don’t feel your presence. What is happening to you Seunghyun?” I was still dazed from her long speech. So out of the blue, words came out of my mouth. “I think I’m in love with someone else.” “WHAT?!” She shouted as she stood up. Because of that, I realized what I just said. I looked at her as tears were beginning to form in her eyes. “How could you?” she asked. “How could I? God Bom! How could I not? You told me you’ll be away for one year, and then you came back three years after. Three Craking years Bom! Don't you get it? Distance doesn't make the heart grow fonder. It makes the heart go and find another!” I just lost my temper. I didn’t even notice that I was already standing. “I thought you, of all people, would understand. You’re pathetic, you know that? I did it for my family, not for myself. If I had a choice, would I have left you? No. God! You’re blaming it to me? Three years Seunghyun, but you never even made a move. You didn’t even try to go and visit me there. So, what’s your excuse? I know that fact that all you did was party and get drunk!” What she said was like an arrow that struck me. God! I’m such an idiot. I was mentally hurting myself when she suddenly asked something. “Who is she?” I stared at her and replied “It doesn’t matter.” She came towards me and held my face with her hands. “Who is she?” she asked again. I didn’t answer. I just looked at her straight in her eyes. Then, tears automatically fell from her eyes. She let go of me as she hugged herself. “You know what breaks my heart? When I looked into your eyes, I don't see my reflection. I see hers.” Those were her last words to me for she ran towards the parking area. I was unsure of what to do next. Should I follow her or should I not? But, I want to do the right thing. So I put on my shoes and fixed my pants before I ran after her (A/N. I know..what a stupid move for someone who’s in panic right? But then, there are really people like that… believe me, I would have done the same.) But, I was too late; she drove off even before I could reach her. This time, I was REALLY panicking. I knew she was going to do something crazy if I didn’t follow her. So, I went inside and look her Jiyong. I really need his keys. I was still catching my own breathe when I reached Jiyong. “Jiyong, I need your car keys. Please, this is an emergency.” “Hyung, what happened?” Jiyong hyung asked as he look for his keys. Seunghyun hyung only said one thing: “Bom…” END OF FLASHBACK “Bom… please be okay.” I said. Then, the door suddenly opened. Dara stood up from her seat and approached the doctor. “Is my sister okay? Please tell me.” Her eyes were really swollen because of too much crying. God! I really should be punished, I made their life miserable. “She’s in a stable state now. It’s quite a miracle, you know, for she lost a lot of blood. Anyway, she would be sent to her private room now.” Doctor Leen said. “Thank God.” Dara said as she hugged Jiyong. Sigh. At least now, I can finally breathe. -------------------- We’ve waited the whole night, yet Bom still haven’t woken up. Dara was sitting beside the bed as she was holding Bom’s hand. Jiyong was just sitting patiently on the the corner. I, on the other hand, was walking back and forth. I’m just nervous. What if Bom won’t wake up? I was thinking of several possibilities when I suddenly heard Dara speak. “Unnie? Guys, I think she’s conscious now.” We all stared at Bom as she slowly opened her eyes. Her eyes roamed the room and she looked confused. Then, with her coarse voice, I heard her say that thing that I was afraid of. “Where am I?” ---------
She seemed unconvinced but she didn’t say another word. She sat down, took of her sandals and dipped her legs in the pool.
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Epilogue
flashbacks of the past [1:09 AM]
Chaerin’s POV Daesung and Minji were talking to me but I can’t help but gaze at him. He was looking at them again. I could see the sadness in his eyes, but why isn’t he doing anything about it? Is he some freaking masochist? Can’t he see that obvious fact that her heart belongs to someone else now? I laughed at myself. I’m such a hypocrite. Here I am, criticizing a guy for being so stupid by falling in love with someone who can never be his. Yet, here I am, staring at a guy I like, even though I know that his heart belongs to someone else. But, it all comes down to this: love makes people stupid. I know, after that incident, I swear that I will never like boys again, that I will never fall in love again. But, I guess Cupid’s just so stupid. He made me fall for him. Why is love so complicated? We fall for people who we can never have. I let a sigh escape from my mouth. “Chaerin unnie, are you okay? You seem lost.” Minji said. I just look at her and look at Taeyang as he looked at Dara. Little Minji seem to follow my gaze. “I must be wishing on someone else's star, cause it seems that someone else is always getting what I've wished for.” I saw Minji frown. “This is the prime reason why I don’t want to fall in love. I don’t want to get hurt. I don’t want fake smiles. I don’t want to be like my oppa.” “Minji-yah! Don’t be like that. Taeyang didn’t have a choice. He fell for her. When you fall in love, you fall hard!” Daesung told Minji. “Woah! Oppa, you’re an expert. You must be in love!” Minji said. “No I’m not.” Daesung said as he blushed. ‘Damn Dae! You’re making it obvious. Can’t even hide what you’re feeling.’ But, I didn’t say it aloud. Just looked at Daesung straight in his eyes and gave him that i-know-something-about-you look. I could see the panic in Daesung eyes, so I decided to help the poor guy. “Minji-yah. How can you say that you don’t want to fall in love? You can fall in love any time, in any place.” I saw Daesung mouth “thanks” to me. Then, I heard Minji reply. “I just think I’m too young to fall in love. You know what? I can feel it. My Mr. Right is coming. But, he's still in the Sahara Dessert...and he's walking. And when he arrives, I’ll be ready then.” “So, I guess your Mr. Right would come from the Sahara Desert and arrive by the time you reach 40!” I jokingly said. But I stopped laughing when a devil went inside the hall. So I stood up and left the house. I’d rather die and go to hell than be in the same room with that jerk. I mean, what’s the difference? -------- I saw her leaving as I entered the room. I guess she still hates me. But, how could she not? I practically played with her heart. FLASHBACK: I could feel the wind on my face as the waves touch my feet. I held the hand of my girlfriend as we wait for the sun to set together. The sight is truly majestic and it’s even more beautiful because I spent this moment with her. Everything seems to be perfect. But then, she started to cry. “Anj, why are you crying?” I asked as I wipe her cheeks wet from her tears with my hands. I waited patiently for her answer but it never came out of her mouth. So, I asked again. This time, she looked at me with her swollen eyes and said those two words I never want to hear. “He’s back.” ‘I guess, this is goodbye.’ ------- It’s been one week since Anj broke up with me for that GUY. I don’t know if who’s to blame since I knew this was going to happen. I knew that she’s still in love with him by the time I pursued her. But, I thought after 6 months, I could make her love me. I guess I was wrong. Now, I’m standing in the corner looking at her and her new boyfriend. Their hands were linked together and there were smiles plastered on their faces. I looked at the SMS she sent to me after she left me in the beach for the nth time. “I thought I was over him. I thought I don’t need him anymore. I thought I don’t love him anymore. But when I saw him again, it’s like all the feelings I had for him went back. I’m so sorry Seung-ri. I love you, but I love him more.” Every time I read it, my heart breaks little by little. But, cannot NOT look at it. She said she LOVE me. Then, my heart would heal again, only to be broken again as I read the succeeding words. -------- “Seung-ri must be gay. That’s why his girlfriend broke up with him a month ago.” “I’m hot, so why won’t he date me?” I was eating in the school cafeteria and that’s all I’ve been hearing. Why are they so interested with my personal and love life? But, I shrugged it off and continued eating. “Pabo! He doesn’t want to date you, you’re a girl. Maybe he’s looking for some hot guy.” ‘Okay! That’s it! I can’t take it anymore!’ I pushed away my food and went to the nearby table. “I AM NOT GAY!” I shouted at them. Thank God that the cafeteria was full of noisy people and only a few heard me. A girl from one of my classes stared at me and said “Then prove it.” I looked at her and asked: “How?” I saw her whisper something to the girl beside her and she nodded. Then, that girl whispered it to another girl and so on. It was like they were passing a message to each other. Then, they look at me and said as she pointed some girl “See that girl?” I looked at the girl she pointed and nodded. “What about her?” “Date her. Make her fall in love with you. Then, dump her.” “Bwoh? I won’t do it. It’s mean.” They looked each other and said “See guys, he’s gay. He can’t even do a simple task. “Okay.Fine. I’ll do it. Just stop talking about me behind my back.” With that, I left without another word. I was about to go out of the cafeteria when I bumped into someone. “Mianhae.” I said as I help her pick up her things. When I look up to her, my eyes widened. It was the girl they want me to date. I gave her back her things and said sorry once again. I don’t if I apologized for bumping at her, or for what I’m about to do to her. “Hi. You’re Kwon Seung-ri right? I think you drop this.” The girl said as she was handling me my wallet. “Thank you errr...miss...” I said. “Oh. I’m Chaerin. Lee Chaerin. I was the girl you bumped into yesterday.” “Chaerin-ssi, sorry again.” “It’s okay. No harm done. I even have to thank you for helping me get my things.” ‘No harm done? Damn, I’m starting to feel guilty.’ I said to myself. “Uhm... Chaerin-ssi, since you returned to me my wallet, let me thank you by treating you ice cream. That is...if you didn’t take any money from my wallet.” I said teasingly. “No! I would never do that. Look at it, all your cards and money are still there.” She said nervously. “Haha. You should have seen your face. You were really nervous. Haha. I was only joking.” “YAH! Don’t joke around me.” “Hmmm. Since I made you mad, let me treat you some ice cream. Hope it will cool up your hot head.” She became even more read now because of too much anger. Oh, she’s cute when she’s mad. “Hey! Will you please stop looking at me? I already know I’m cute. Now, get me some ice cream.” Then, she grabbed my hand and dragged me to the nearest ice cream parlor. I feel bad from time to time because I know that this started because of the bet to prove I’m not gay. My classmates told me to dump her in a week and I don’t know what to do now. “RiRi, what are you thinking about?” Chaerin asked me. (A/N. RiRi...such a cute pet name, right?) “You.” ‘We’ll I was really thinking about her. Thinking about how to dump her.’ “Awww. You’re such a sweet talker sometimes.” She said as she pinches my face. “Hey, do you want to hang out today? I want to spend this day with you.” “I’d loved to.Anyway, I want to go to the park RiRi.” I held her hand as we walk towards the park. I’ll forget about anything else. I’m going to enjoy this moment with her, because it might be the last. -------- I don’t want to dump her. I don’t want to break her heart. Even if I don’t love her, I will try to love her. Who cares about that stupid bet? Chaerin is more important than that. “Anj?” I said with disbelief. There she was, standing on my door step, with tears on her eyes. “Seung-ri!” she said as she threw her arms around me. “Let’s get inside first, okay? Then, tell me what happened.” We went to the living room and she narrated to me what happened. I can’t help but feel mad after she told me everything. “That stupid bastard! How could he do this to you? God! I could kill him.” “Why? Why of all the guys in the world... why did I fell for him? All he did was break my heart over and over again. God! I’m so stupid.” “Stop it Anj. You’re not stupid. You left him and that’s not a stupid choice. How could he hurt you? Damn, I would never hurt a girl.” “I regret the day I broke up with you. You love me with all your heart. Yet, I broke up with you. If only, if only I could turn back time, I would have not done it to you.” Then, I saw her face coming nearer to time. The next thing I know, she was kissing me. “I’m so sorry Seung-ri. I shouldn’t have done that. God! You have a girlfriend. I’m so sorry.” With that, she stood up and left. I touched my lips, the ones she touched with her own. But, I don’t feel anything. It’s not there anymore. The spark whenever we kissed before. So it’s true then, I really am over her. The guys treat me like a God. The girls look at me with disgust. What the hell is happening? I was walking on the hallway when my classmates who made me do that crazy bet pat my back. “Well done Seung-ri. I like how your mind works.” One of the girls said. “Excuse me?” I asked them with confusion. Then, I saw Chaerin coming in my way. I was about to kiss her when she suddenly slapped me. “How dare you show up here? After all you did to me, you have the guts to show me your face?” “What are you talking about?” She looked at me with disgust. Then she left. “What the hell is going on?” “Didn’t you know? She went to your house yesterday. She saw you kissing your ex. Then, she heard us talking about the bet earlier. Seung-ri, you really broke her heart big time. See girls, we already had our revenge with that biatch.” “So you used me to get back at her. You’re impossible.” With that, I left and looked for Chaerin. Damn, I have a lot of explaining to do. END OF FLASHBACK But I never had the opportunity to explain to her. She never gave me the chance. People say that love hides behind every corner. Darnn, I must be walking in circles! Ever since I broke Chaerin’s heart, girls won’t date me anymore. Even Anj is avoiding me like a plague. It was like a curse. But, who am I to blame? No one but myself. “Yo, Little Brother? What brings you here?” my older brother, Jiyong said, interrupting my thoughts. “Mom sent me here. She heard that you went to a party and you might get drunk. She doesn’t want you to drive.” “Aish! Mom treats me like a kid. I can control my alcohol intake you know. Right, Bunny Honey?" he said as he gave his girlfriend a light squeeze. Then suddenly, Seunghyun hyung ran towards us. Panic is plastered on his face. “Jiyong, I need your car keys. Please, this is an emergency.” “Hyung, what happened?” Jiyong hyung asked as he look for his keys. Seunghyun hyung only said one thing: “Bom…”
Seung-ri's POV
Then, she left me alone in the beach. So I looked at the sun, which is about to set, with teary eyes.
“Yeah. I mean if he’s not gay, why is he still single now?”
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Ever since Chaerin gave me back my wallet, we became pretty close. In no time, we were already dating. Yes, we fight now and then but it’s nothing serious.
Chaerin is a great person and I won’t deny the fact that I like her. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not in love with her, but I just like her. And it breaks my heart whenever I think about dumping her.
I had fun with her in the park and after I dropped her off their house, I thought about everything.
I was alone in our house that day and I was just watching some movies when I heard the doorbell ring. I ran towards the door and opened it.
I heard a loud crash before I pushed Anj away from me.
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Something’s weird today.
flashbacks of the past [1:08 AM]
Seunghyun’s POV I always thought that rich kids don’t have to worry about stuff like work. So, why are my parents forcing me to work in their company even though they won’t retire anytime soon? Aish… maybe it’s because---- I’M NOT A KID ANYMORE. It’s been 3 days since the last time I saw another human being except for my secretary (who kept on flirting with me, but it was an EPIC FAIL, considering she’s already 40 and not to mention, 200-pounds. Urghh. Even thinking about her wearing that super short shirt the other day makes me wanna kill myself.) I’m still in my office, doing my report for my presentation for NEXT WEEK! Suddenly, I heard my phone ring. I look at the caller ID and saw it was Jiyong. “Yo! Jiyong. Why did you call?” “Seunghyun, let’s go to a party tonight. I’m pretty bored.” ‘A party? Perfect. I need to get out of this office before I become crazy.’ “Sure. What time would we meet?” “Is 8 pm alright? And, don’t bring a car; I’ll just fetch you on your apartment.” “Sure.” After that I hang the phone. I look at my desk, which full of papers and folders, and gave a loud sigh. I loosened my tie as I stood up and took my things before I left my office. As I got out of my office, I signaled my scarytary…I mean, secretary to arrange the files on my table because I’m leaving early today. She winked at me and I almost puked. I think that was my cue to leave this building. ---------- As I arrive in my apartment, I took a quick shower to relax myself. My life in the office is really hell. But what can I do? My parents threatened to disown me if I don’t work. Sigh. When I got out of the bathroom, I realized that it was already 7:45 pm. Jiyong will arrive here by 8, so I need to move fast. By, 8:15 pm I heard my phone ring. I know that it’s Jiyong and he was actually downstairs and pissed at me for being late again. “Jiyong! I’m going down now.” That’s all I said, then I hang the phone. I didn’t even let the poor guy speak. Darn, he’s going to be really pissed at me. After a few minutes, I arrived on the ground floor and I saw him waiting patiently while sitting on the receiving area. “Finally! You’re here. Let’s go.” ‘Weird. He’s not mad at me for letting him wait? Hmmm… I can smell something fishy. Kwon Jiyong, what are you up to?’ I said to myself. We went out of the parking area and rode his car. Then off we go. PARTY…here we come! -------- We’ve been driving for about 15 minutes when I realized something. “Jiyong, are we doing to Dara’s house? This is the way to her house, right?” “Oh. I’m just gonna fetch Dara. She wants to come with us.” Dara will be coming with us? Oh great. This is going to be uncomfortable. FLASHBACK “Please, don’t leave me.” I said aloud as I grabbed Dara’s hand. I don’t want to be alone now. Ever since Bom left, I realized how lonely it is. Dara filled up the space Bom left. She takes care of me whenever I get drunk like this. She makes me laugh when I’m lonely. She stays with me when I’m alone. How come my girlfriend won’t come back with me even if I begged her to? And her sister, her sister who isn’t even my girlfriend would stay with me just because I asked her to. As Dara was sitting beside where I was lying, I kept on thinking about these things. Maybe it would be better if she was my girlfriend, and not her sister. Maybe, the whole time, I’m dating the WRONG SISTER. It’s really confusing, and even though I’m already sober enough to think about this, I guess the alcohol went back to my head. It’s like I’m a robot controlled by another person. The next thing I did even shocked me. I grabbed Dara towards the bed and I was on top of her. I felt her squirm yet I held her tighter. I heard her scream something, but I just couldn’t understand it. And the next thing I know, I was kissing her. Then, I felt that my face is becoming wet. By that time, I realized what I was doing. But, I’m too scared of what will happen next. So I pretended to passed out beside her. I heard her sobbing as she ran towards the door. By the time she left, I stood up to leave. I don’t know where I would go, or what would I do next. All I want right now is for someone to beat myself. END OF FLASHBACK “Seunghyun, we’re here.” “Huh?” I realized that we’re now outside Dara’s house. I went out of the car and I noticed that there are a lot of cars too. I knew Jiyong is up to something. “Yah! Kwon Jiyong, what the hell is going on?” Jiyong just looked at me as he went up the stairs. When he was on the top, he yelled. “YOU HAVE TO GO INSIDE TO FIND OUT.” Aish! This guy is really impossible. He didn’t even tell me. And he knows me too well. He didn’t let me bring my car so that I couldn’t escape. He brought the keys with him, so that I couldn’t borrow his car. Aish. Kwon Jiyong, why do have to be so smart? So, I don’t have much choice, huh? I went up the stairs and I could music from the inside. As I held the knob, I felt goosebumps. ‘Oh come on Seunghyun, it’s just a party! Don’t be such a chicken!’ So, I opened the door even thought I knew something bad is about to happen. As I entered the house, I was greeted by the person I never thought would ever see again. ---------- Bom’s POV I saw Jiyong enter the house. And it only means something--- HE’S HERE. I’m beginning to feel mixed emotions now. Finally, after three years, I’ll get to meet him again. I really felt bad after I informed him that I was going to extend my one year stay in the States. I think, that was the last time we ever communicated. I guess he was hurt so much. But, what can I do? I did it for my family. And, I’m here now. I’m back. That’s the important thing, isn’t it? Now, I just hope that he hasn’t change at all. I saw the door opened slightly and I know that it’s him behind the door. So I ran towards the door. When I reached the door, he was already inside so, I did what I should do. I hugged him. Before I hugged him, I was positive that he was shocked (His eyes widened and he turned a little bit pale.). Maybe he’s just surprised. That’s why I still embraced him. But, I felt that he’s so stiff. So, I guess I was wrong. He did change. In fact, he changed a lot. ------- Taeyang’s POV I saw Seunghyun whispered something to Bom noona. And judging from noona’s facial expression, I guess it’s something bad. They went out to the pool area. The others continued with whatever they were doing. And here I am, sitting on the side of my two bestfriends. They were cuddling and it was too sweet that I could see ants coming. I know, I should be happy with them. But most of the time, I felt that I am just the third wheel. I saw them look at me, and I just smiled. I want to punch myself every time in this kind of situation. I’m so pathetic. I smile, even though inside, I am hurting. FLASHBACK I was 8 years old and my parents made me enter this camp. They said it’s good for me since I don’t have friends and all I do is stay at home. They want me to meet new friends and do some outdoor activities like a normal kid would. But, who said I want to be normal? I was bored and even though I should be on the cabin sleeping like a normal kid would, I went out and entered the woods. In the middle of the woods, I heard someone sobbing. “Is anyone there?” I said. The sobbing continues yet no one was answering me. So, I just followed the sound and behind a bush, I saw a little girl crying. She was curled in a ball, and I know she’s scared. “Hey, are you alright?” I asked her. She looked up to me and she suddenly hugged me. I was shocked. I never had a friend before. And the only people who hug me are my parents and my little sister, Minji. But, I never felt that hugging someone unrelated to you can feel this good. Then, I heard the girl speak. “I was so scared. Those bullies brought and left me here. Thank God you saw me. I thought that I was going to die.” “Really?” she said as she wiped her eyes and cheeks. “There, I’m not crying anymore.” I smiled at her. “Uhmm… ajusshi can you please take me back to my unnie? She must be worried now.” “Don’t call me ajusshi. I’m only 8. Call me Taeyang. Dong Taeyang.” “Okay, Taeyang-ssi. I’m Dara by the way. Park Dara.” “Dara-ssi, I’ll be your guide okay. I’ll bring you back to your unnie.” (Wow, I sound like those superheroes I see in television.) For the first time of my life, I met a friend, a friend with the name “Dara”. -------- It’s been 10 years since Dara and I became bestfriends. And it’s been 3 years since I’ve started to like her in a different light. Yes, I know that there’s a famous quote which says that “Friendship often leads to love…” But, what stops me from telling her is the continuation of that same quote “…but love to friendship… never!” Our friendship is too precious to me and I won’t risk losing it. I’m going to end this. I shouldn’t feel this. Maybe I started feeling things for Dara because she’s always with me. So, I decided. I’m going to avoid her. Because of that, my world became wider and I met new people. I met this great guy, Kwon Jiyong. But, there’s a little bit of problem. Ever since I started hanging out with Jiyong, Dara seems to hate Jiyong more and more. So, I did what I can do to make the two of my favorite people in world live in peace. In a party Jiyong organized, we played 7 Minutes in Heaven. My plan is to lock them up in the room so that they can figure things out on their own. So, we spin the bottle and I guess the heavens were with me because it pointed to Jiyong and his partner was Dara. “NO! I don’t want to be locked in the same room with that monkey!” Dara said. “And do you think I want to be with you?” Jiyong replied. “Oh…come one guys. It’s just 7 minutes. You don’t have to do anything.” I said. “Yeah. And you’ll be breaking the rules if you don’t follow. I and Taeyang didn’t even complain when the bottle pointed at us earlier.” Jamie, our classmate said. Both of them gave a heavy sigh. “We don’t have a choice, huh?” Jiyong said. With that she grabbed Dara’s hand and they entered the room. “I hope you two kiss and make up.” I said. I really want them to be civil toward each other. We locked them up in the room, not only for 7 minutes, but for…the whole night. I hope one whole night is enough. I just don’t want my best friends fighting. On the other hand, we continued the party with the host. When it’s was time to leave, we decided to open the room. As we open the door, we saw Jiyong and Dara kissing each other. I looked around and saw that my classmates were cheering and clapping their hands, but I couldn’t hear them. All I heard is my heart breaking in pieces. I left the party and drove myself home. As I got home, I went to my room and lied on my bed. “I shouldn’t have said that… This is all my fault.” I cried myself to sleep. But before I fell asleep, I thought of what I said. “I hope you two kiss and make up.” END OF FLASHBACK Ever since that night, I’ve been the third wheel. I’ve never, even in my wildest dream, ever thought that Jiyong and Dara were fighting like crazy because they liked each other. All they want to get each other’s attention. If I have known, I wouldn’t have planned everything. I wouldn’t have let her and Jiyong play that stupid game. But, I know it’s too late. I’ve been always her guide. I guided her when she got lost in the woods when we were young. I guided her… I guided her to Jiyong’s heart.
I dressed up and arranged my hair as fast I could. Considering I am Seunghyun, 15 minutes of dressing up and arranging of hair is NOT ENOUGH.
“Don’t cry now. I don’t like seeing girls cry. I remember, my mom would buy little Minji ice cream if she cries. I’ll buy you one if we meet again. Just stop crying.”
Maybe she thinks that Jiyong is pulling me away from her.
flashbacks of the past [1:06 AM]
Dara’s POV I frowned when unnie mentioned Seunghyun’s name. Up to now, I still can’t forget that fateful night. FLASHBACK Ring. Ring. Ring. ‘Aish! Who could be calling me in the middle of the night?’ I took my phone on my bedside table and looked at the caller ID. ‘Huh? Seunghyun? Aish! He must be drunk again!’ “Yoboseyo?” I answered the phone. “Good evening miss…” the guy on the other line said. I rolled my eyes… ‘Good evening? It’s 2 am!!! It’s morning!’ But, luckily, I did not say it out loud. I just let the guy finish whatever he was saying. “… Can you please fetch the owner of this phone in our bar? He’s pretty drunk.” ‘See I was right. He go drunk again. Damn. He must be missing unnie.’ “ Err… what’s the address?” I took a pen and piece of paper to write the address. After that, I thanked the guy and ended the call. ‘Aish! Seunghyun, you got to pay me for this!’ I got up from my bed and went to the bathroom to clean up and change my clothes. I took my phone and car keys and went to get my car. ------------ I arrived in the bar after a few minutes since it wasn’t that far away from our house. As I entered the bar, I started looking for Seunghyun. Someone tapped me on the back. I turned around and saw an unfamiliar face. “Excuse me?” “Miss, are you the one I called earlier?” he asked. “Oh. Yeah. Errr.. can you please tell me where I can find my friend?” He lead me to where Seunghyun is. When I saw him, he passed out already. ‘Darn Seunghyun! You’re gonna die of alcohol poisoning someday.’ “Err… can you help me carry him to my car? He’s kind of heavy.” I begged. “No problem. I’ll do anything for a pretty girl.” ‘Oh great. Now he’s flirting with me?’ I shrugged it off. I just looked at the guy as he carried Seunghyun towards me car. I thanked him after we placed Seunghyun on the back seat and I immediately went inside the car. The guy’s creeping me out. For God’s sake, he was flirting with me the whole time. I started the engine and drove off to Seunghyun’s apartment. --------- I parked outside the building where Seunghyun is living. I opened the back seat of the car so that I could wake him up. (HEY! I’m TOO SMALL to carry this giant!) As I shook him, I heard him murmur. “ Why didn’t you come back?” I sighed. He’s been like this since he found out that Bom unnie will be extending her stay in the States. But how could I blame unnie? The company is not in a stable state yet. But, I can’t blame Seunghyun too. It’s his way of coping up with his sadness. I shook him again and this time, I screamed so that he would wake up. “SEUNGHYUN! WAKE UP!” He did wake up, but he’s still not sober. On the brighter side, at least he could walk. All I have to do is guide him. ------------ The elevator opened as we reached the fifteenth floor. God knows how thankful I am to Him for creating a person who would invent such contraption. What would I do without the elevator? We got off the elevator and started looking for his door. I saw it in no time, since I’ve been here before. I entered his password (Bom unnie told me!) and the door opened. I lead him to his bedroom and let him lie down on his bed. I’ve been doing this for quite some time now, so I’m not embarrassed to be in his room. It’s not like I’m doing something bad right? I took off his shoes like I usually do. And after that, I would leave. But, as I turned around to leave, I felt someone grabbed my hand. “Please… don’t leave me…” Seunghyun said. I just couldn’t say no. This guy is hurting so much because of my sister. So, I stayed. I know that it’s dangerous to be alone in a room with a drunk man, but Seunghyun should be an exemption right? After all, he loves my sister, right? He wouldn’t do anything crazy, right? I don’t know if I’m sure or I’m only convincing myself that it’s fine to be alone in a room with a drunk Seunghyun. But, contrary to what I just said, Seunghyun suddenly pulled me towards him. I fell on the bed and he was on top of me. For the first time in my life, I got scared of Seunghyun. I tried to push him off me but he was too strong. He held me tighter every time I squirm and it was starting to hurt. “ Seunghyun! You’re hurting me. Get off!” I screamed! It’s like he didn’t hear me. The next thing I know, he was kissing me. I tried to push him off me, but he was really strong. I felt helpless. I closed my eyes as tears fell from my eyes. I don’t know but I guess my tears have worked. He stopped kissing me. I opened my eyes and I saw him passed out beside me. I got up from the bed and run towards the door. I swear, I’m never gonna come back here again. END OF FLASHBACK “Dara-yah! We’re here!” I heard Bom unnie said. When I looked outside the car window, I realized that we already arrived home. I frowned because I remembered that memory again. Aish! “Bunny Honey! What’s wrong? You seem out of yourself again?” my boyfriend asked. Even though I know he was concerned, I still don’t want to talk about it. So, I changed the topic. “Yah! Why do keep calling me that?” “Don’t you two ever get tired of fighting?” Bom unnie said. Jiyong and I looked at each other and answered Bom unnie in unison. “NO!”. ______________ Jiyong’s POV “Don’t you two ever get tired of fighting?” Bom noona asked. I looked at Dara and answered Bom noona in unison. “NO!”. Bom noona rolled her eyes as she heard our answer. I know. It’s weird. We’re not like those normal couples you see around. But that’s how we show our “love” for each other. And it’s not like a real fight. Dara and I just love teasing each other. I was taking Bom noona’s luggage out of the car trunk when someone tapped me on the back. I turned around and saw Bom noona. “Ji, can I ask for a favor?” she said nervously. “Uh…sure. What is it?” “You see, I’m planning to have a party tonight and I want to surprise Seunghyun. You know that I didn’t inform him that I’m back here right? So, can you… errr… trick him to get here?” “Sure.” She jumped and hugged me. “Thanks Ji. What would I do without you?” “Ppyongie, how could you? You’re cheating on me, with my own sister?” Dara and her dramatic acts again. Bom noona let go of me and I walked towards my girlfriend. “Bunny honey, you know that you’re the only one right?” She was about to say something more but I beat her and silenced her with a kiss. She didn’t even fight. She placed her arms around my neck and started kissing me back. When things were starting to get heated, Bom noona whom we forgot was standing near us, cleared her throat. “Please don’t give me a free show guys. Gosh! Go and get yourself a room.” I looked at Dara and I wiggled my eyebrows seductively. I saw Dara’s eyes widened as she turned red. “You’re still not getting any actions from me, Mr. Kwon.” Then, she ran towards the house. I ran after her, ignoring Bom noona’s scream. (“Hey! Don’t leave me here. Help me carry my luggages! Urgh!”) I wanted to catch Dara so I increased me speed. 0206.gif But then, I felt a sting on my chest so I stopped running. Dara might have noticed that I’m not running after her anymore. She turned back and saw me clutching my chest. “Ppyongie, is there something wrong?” she said with a concerned look. I never wanted Dara to worry about me, so I lied to her. “Ha! I caught you!” I said as I wrap her around my arms. “Yah! Don’t do that ever again. You got me worried here.” My chest is still hurting but I don’t want her to know that. So, I gave her fake smile. ‘I’m healthy right? I’ve nothing to worry about.’
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Anj Tiu
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